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You might be wondering where I went….

…although that stinks to high heaven of a metric ton load of ego.

It does make me feel warm and fuzzy to think that you had a “whoa” moment (FYI – said in a total Keanu Reeves voice, not the Joey Lawrence voice) when you realized ALERT ALERT, BLOG DOWN! and were sad for  just a few seconds before you moved on.

Of course, really? Who reads blogs on the weekends? Besides me, of course.

On a total side note, if you’re pretty used to seeing me hitting your website and leaving comments and loving all over you…sorry! Been a bit crazy here with the whole “sick mom” thing and that “failing as a homeschooler” bit and then, of course, there’s the “I’m so tired I want to lock myself in a closet and just sleep in an Ambien-induced coma for about a week” mumbo-jumbo.

If you’re wondering why I haven’t been to your site yet and don’t leave comments….sorry!  I slack, therefore I am. Send me an email! Yell at me!  So, I can add “writhing in guilt and shame” thing to my aforementioned list.

If you have no blog yet for me to not visit and not comment at…why the heck not??  Get with the program here!

Will I ever post a post that makes sense or has a point?  Maybe.

I want to tell you about watching a shuttle take-off with my kids.

There was this great moment when my kids realized I’m not a complete dumba** loser bonehead, sometimes I know what I’m talking about…which, you know I totally NEED to write this one because those moments are few and far between and I want to get it down before I completely forget.

I have some great pictures found amongst the stacks of stacks at my parent’s house…some are freaking awesome bad hair pics of me…but there are a few *cough* thousand *cough* of my sister that I totally scanned and have on my hard drive enjoyed and then put back in their box.

I’m deciding whether I want to write about what it feels like to have to talk about end of life preparedness and the scary responsibility of being a healthcare surrogate for my parents.

I just made six meals and stuck them in the freezer, washed a buttload of laundry and am trying feverishly to feel like I am preparing my parents for being here by themselves and that I’m not abandoning them….with my dad and his still-healing-broken-hip issues and my mom with her grocery list of issues…my dad has a cane, my mom uses a walker…guilt!

There’s a lot going on IN my head, just not a terribly huge amount coming OUT of my head…or my fingers…or whichever visual image is least distrubing.

I will go now, as my rambling has confused me.

Oh! Just to keep with my Star Wars theme for this week:

HEH.  Guess I got next year’s Halloween costume already picked out!

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11 Comments on “You might be wondering where I went….”

  1. #1 Melisa
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 8:40 am

    I *have* missed you! Now get your happy a$$ over to my blog! You’ve got some ‘splainin to do, Lucy!

    (and you in particular will probably love today’s post…I’m ridin’ the rage!)

    Melisas last blog post..Oh No, She Didn’t!!!

  2. #2 Brittany
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 8:47 am

    I am so glad to see you have resurfaced, I happen to be a weekend blog reader,so I was ready to send out the life boats!

    You are holding it together like a rock start sweetie!

    You deserve an award….or just a really really big bottle of wine.

    Brittanys last blog post..Steak with Ice Cream Sauce

  3. #3 Lisa Bedrosian
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 10:43 am

    Just making sure you know I am missing you. Let go of the guilt and just do the best you can. You are a loving daughter and a great mom…perfect, never…but NO ONE is! NOT ONE!
    Much love from Brandon,
    Lisa

  4. #4 maggie, dammit
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 11:21 am

    Welcome back!

    maggie, dammits last blog post..For the Record

  5. #5 chris
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 1:49 pm

    You’re doing great! Bloggers fear too quickly that readers will abandon them if they take a break – for any reason. I personally don’t understand that thinking.

    Take care of yourself…

  6. #6 Lisa
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 8:44 pm

    Glad to see you’re back! Thought it was just my computer acting up. I check your site faithfully.

    Lisas last blog post..phoenix phamily phun

  7. #7 Jen W
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 9:21 pm

    Glad you are back but if it meant that you were able to cook 6 meals (you overachiever you) then I suppose it was worth it!

    Jen Ws last blog post..Showtime with Megan (and Jack)

  8. #8 Queen of the Mayhem
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 10:08 pm

    Good LORD woman! You have a LOT on your plate!

    I see that God has placed a lot of confidence in you!

    I am feeling the blog blahs of late…..I just don’t have much interesting to share and I am SO DARN tired from real life…that I just don’t have it in me as much! *sigh*

    These are all things we need to discuss in person…over drinks….hopefully at BlogHer!

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  9. #9 Evon
    on Nov 18th, 2008 at 10:57 pm

    I am glad to hear your Mom will be okay. I do know the exhaustion though as my Mom has Alzheimer’s and me and my brothers do take care of her and my Dad. I feel for you….and I am sure you will get those kids all caught up with their school work as soon as this all dies down and you get some rest!

    Love you Anissa!

    Evon

  10. #10 D's Mommy
    on Nov 19th, 2008 at 1:16 am

    You and your blog were missed during those moments I couldn’t read it. I was thinking it was my dumb laptop, b/c it happens sometimes to me depending on the site, but I’m glad that it wasn’t and that you’re back! And I don’t have a blog b/c what would I say:) and what would I call it!

  11. #11 jack parler
    on Mar 10th, 2009 at 1:03 am

    Your blog rocks dude!