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Reminders are everywhere

“I HATE this game!!”

I *would* say that such vehement declarations are a rarity in my house, but I think that we all know that the child of the person who once told a stranger at Target that if she didn’t stop staring at my bald kid, I’d rip out her eyes and choke her with them MIGHT have learned a few things along the way.

“I am going to PUNCH you, computer!”

Finally, I got curious enough to see what the computer was doing that was ticking Peyton off so badly…also because I was a little worried the next thing that was going to come out of her mouth would be choice words that I like to pretend my  kids have never heard me say.

“YO! What’s the problem, shorty?”

“I HATE this GAME!!!”

“Yeah, I got that.  Why do you hate the game?”

“You see my girl?”


“You see I gave her hair?”


“When I go to a new screen she’s BALD!  BALD!!  I hate it that my girl is bald!”

“But she has hair NOW.”

“She keeps coming up bald before her hair comes back.  I don’t want my girl to be bald anymore!!  She looks prettier with hair.”

“Oh, baby…”

“I hate my girl now.  This game sucks, mama.”

Yeah. It does.

My girl was damn cute bald.


But she GETS to hate the game that reminds her what it was like to lose her hair.


And she gets to break my heart all over again.

Someday she’ll forget.

I hope.

14 Comments on “Reminders are everywhere”

  1. #1 Brittany
    on May 19th, 2009 at 8:40 am

    Damn that game, I hate it FOR her!

  2. #2 Kyla
    on May 19th, 2009 at 10:15 am

    Ooof, my heart.

    Stupid game.

  3. #3 Jessica
    on May 19th, 2009 at 4:10 pm

    this damn well near broke my heart.

    Jessicas last blog post..Honey, is it me or is the EARTH MOVING?!

  4. #4 Issa
    on May 19th, 2009 at 4:19 pm

    Yep hating that game for her too. She was beautiful bald. Just as beautiful as she is now.

    She might not forget, but she will probably never be the adult that stares at a bald kid either.

    Issas last blog post..Guest post: One step forward, three steps back

  5. #5 Melisa
    on May 19th, 2009 at 5:09 pm

    OUCH. Poor thing. How heart-wrenching. 🙁

    Melisas last blog post..K-I-T-T-E-N-S

  6. #6 MonsteRawr
    on May 19th, 2009 at 5:15 pm

    Ouch. You know some poor programmer couldn’t figure out how to fix that problem and his boss was all, “Don’t worry about it, no one will notice,” except that one tiny blip was enough to make a little girl sad. Like the flap of a butterflies wing, it is.

  7. #7 dug
    on May 19th, 2009 at 10:40 pm

    bald sucks fo sho

    adelaine has blocked out the bald part. i think she resents subconsciously.

    dugs last blog post..Dreams really do come true!

  8. #8 Sugar Jones
    on May 20th, 2009 at 11:46 am

    I can imagine she could hate that more than any of us could ever know… except maybe the mom that hurt for her.


    Sugar Joness last blog post..When The Pilot’s Away…

  9. #9 Miss Grace
    on May 20th, 2009 at 1:26 pm

    I think I hate that game too!

    Miss Graces last blog post..Proving that Nasturshims are Edible

  10. #10 Jodee
    on May 20th, 2009 at 9:22 pm

    I am so sorry.. I know you hurt when your kids do. You are a great mom to her. =-)

    Jodees last blog post..The Zoo…

  11. #11 alayna
    on May 20th, 2009 at 10:36 pm

    Hey, I’m sure you’ve seen the story of the kid with cancer whose parents have refused treatment and are now running from the law? What is your take on it? At first I was totally like, you crazy fool! Get your kid to the hospital and save his life! Then, I watched a video of them and her husband said she was just scared, and my heart went out to her. I totally know the feeling of wanting to take my baby and get the hell out of that hospital and just pretend everything was okay! Thankfully, I had enough sanity to resist that. Anyway, just wondering your opinion. Good luck on the packing and moving! I don’t envy you that one bit! I am STILL wondering where stuff is, saying, “In my OLD house I would know just where that was!”

  12. #12 Dan Cohen
    on May 20th, 2009 at 10:51 pm

    Dear Beautiful Princess Peyton,

    You Peyton are GORGEOUS whether you are bald or if you have hair. You always are.

    Please remember that hair is NOT what makes you or anyone pretty.

    I hope that I was able to put a smile on your face.

    I am sending you a BIG hug.

  13. #13 Holly at Tropic of Mom
    on May 20th, 2009 at 11:33 pm

    Aw. This chokes me up.

  14. #14 Janna
    on May 21st, 2009 at 4:16 pm

    I agree with Issa.

    I have no doubt that Peyton will remember just enough to make her compassionate regardless of the situation. She IS going to be an awesome adult!!!

    Jannas last blog post..Great Post to Read…