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I think the pictures say it all

The ponytail itself is very Pebbles Flintstone, but the grin is ALL Peyton! She was so excited to see it up and staying there. She wants me to put it for school tomorrow!

Please say a lot of prayers for tomorrow and Friday. Thursday evening is Delaney’s viewing and Friday afternoon is the funeral. I know there are funerals every day, there is someone who is lost and memorialized every day. But I am hurting and aching for the Potterbaums, I am so overwhelmed with sadness at the thought that there is no more time to be had with Delaney, and I’m sad for my kids and their continued understanding of loss.

Peyton is sad because she spent the most time with Delaney, Rachael is having a hard time because Delaney was her age and I think it’s making her realize her mortality in a very real way. Nathaniel is just a full of emotions, things he’s not talking about with me when I ask, but that I can see and that his teachers have called to my attention. So, just keep the many children who are sad and confused and scared with the reality of death…I guess the parents aren’t a whole lot better, so pray for us all.

I spent most of the day with the Potterbaum family, just remembering Delaney and giving each other comfort. Kara and I went through a ton of pictures to find the ones that she wanted used in a video that I’m putting together for the service. I did ok with that, then I got home and went through the pictures again and I felt a little broken inside. This beautiful baby with such a full future ahead of her, a child who fought so bravely with a smile on her face and a laugh always ready. Then it just stops. Over too soon and gone too early.

Nathaniel let me in on the funniest bit of trivia regarding funerals.

“Mom, did you know what they used to do at funerals?”

“No, what?”

“They PAID people to cry! They called them wailers and they got paid to go to funerals and pretend to be sad.”

“Well, I always cry at funerals and I don’t get paid.”

“If you go to funerals of people you don’t know and cry really good maybe you’ll get a few bucks.”

Apparently Nathaniel feels that I’m should hit a few funerals and audition for the role of wailer. He’s a funny boy.


3 Comments on “I think the pictures say it all”

  1. #1 Karalyn
    on Feb 28th, 2008 at 11:58 am

    Awwwwwwwww!!!!! I mean really, could she be any cuter?!

  2. #2 Dawn
    on Feb 28th, 2008 at 7:56 pm

    Hi Anissa,

    Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you. This is a tough time you and the kids are going through. I really don't envy you having to talk to them about Delaney's funeral. It's a lot for them to accept that another friend has suddenly gone and that it isn't the first one and it won't be the last one. All sorts of thoughts running through their heads that children shouldn't have to think or worry about.

    I'll keep yours and Delaney's families in my prayers. As for tomorrow, what can you say? It's something no parents should ever have to face, but obviously far too many have to. I know the Lord will give everyone strength to celebrate Delaney's life while here on earth.

    Take care,

    PS. Peyton looks just fabulous (and excited) with her pony tail. And as for that beautiful, floaty creation she chose for the fashion show, well could she look any more like a princess? I don't think I've ever looked that good in my life! Blond and pale that's me – not dark luscious hair and tanned skin (yeah, I know that bit's in the blood but it doesn't stop me being jealous)!!

  3. #3 Alayna
    on Feb 28th, 2008 at 11:34 pm

    How awesome is that ponytail?!? You are the cutest little thing, Miss Peyton, and I'm so happy you have a ponytail, but you are cute no matter if you have a head full of hair or bald as a cue ball! Your personality is what makes you your adorable little self – tell your mom thanks for sharing it with us!


    And much prayers for your whole family and all the families in the days to come.