Hope4Peyton header image

Posts Tagged ‘the cancer life’

The Healing Power of Ribbons

It’s 1:30 in the morning and I should really be asleep.  Like REALLY be asleep. As in, I know tomorrow is going to be an emotionally draining, tearfully painful exercise in grief and strength and I need to be resting to prepare for it.  In 8 hours I need to walk into a funeral home [...]

A child died today

A child died today. A funny little boy with an abundance of freckles and a unique way of pronouncing his r’s. A boy with an infectious smile and a love of Poke’mon and video games. He was a son, brother, friend, loved by many, missed by all. World, you have no idea what you’ve missed [...]

The day that changed EVERYTHING

Saturday night I was laying in bed trying to figure out why I couldn’t sleep, what was keeping me awake and it sure wasn’t because I wasn’t tired.  All week it’s been a weird feeling, like I’m waiting on something…a thing I should know but can’t quite put my finger on.  Wrestling with my pillow [...]

What do you do when you don’t know what you want to do?

I am still in my school-schedule of setting appointments for Peyton’s clinic visits.  So, at 7 AM this morning, when the alarm went off and I knew there were lovely late afternoon appointments we could have taken, I was one step away from ripping off my own foot and beating myself senseless with it.  There [...]

It always comes back to get you

A few years ago, my friend W swore that she was done having kids.  DONE! Closing up shop! She was thrilled to announce that her husband had set up an appointment for the great snippity-snippity.  It wasn’t too many weeks following that declaration that she stopped by me in carline at school, with the most [...]