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No final chemo and words likely to drive me over the edge to the dark place

My heart raced when Peyton and I walked into the clinic this morning.
I mean PUMPING!
Possibly worse than the first time Peter and I walked in there with her, so fragile with dread.
I had myself worked up into a good frenzy.
I would see each procedure as the last.
The last time she would be having the chemo [...]

The weight of words

Peyton had her bi-weekly oncology clinic visit today. They pricked her finger and we got a CBC (complete blood count) that showed everything is right on target.
My heart is relieved.  Each visit, each month…no matter how good she looks, how energetic she’s been…there’s a stutter in my chest while I wait to receive the results [...]

Because I dig my kids!

Ok, how can I not??  These kids are the reason I smile, love and breathe.  They are the best parts of me and Peter wrapped up in fresh promises and inumeral possibilies. They embody all our hopes and dreams.
We have such a busy weekend and upcoming week with these kids. Peter has been here for [...]

Can your digestive system be bi-polar?

Standing in front of the pantry with Peyton in my arms, she’s melancholy and needing a lot of cuddles during this month’s steroids.  And food.  Lots and lots of food.  I had thought she was snoozing when I crept into the bathroom, when I heard her whispering, “huuungry, hungry, huuuuuunnnnggggrrryyyy”.
Wonder what she’s trying to tell [...]

Our lives are changing

So, it used to be that Peyton’s biggest worries were that Dora would get erased from Tivo before she got a chance to watch it and that Nathaniel and Rachael might get more than her. More of what? Who knows or cares, but if they got more of it, it was going to [...]